There's a short but pointed statement about spirituality on Facebook I've seen recently, and very repeatedly.
Ponder on this, if you will:
"Religion is for those who fear going to hell.
Spirituality is for those who have already been there."
And to that I say "AMEN!!!!"
Till later,
Kat ^.^
Sunday, June 15, 2014
Overwhelming Clarity
Archangel Michael has been showing up quite a bit in my cards--even the decks I have in digital form on my smartphone. ESPECIALLY the decks I have on my smartphone! o_O
So after a particularly stressful night at work last night, knowing I just couldn't hack Casey's for too much longer, I decided I'd pull some cards from both the Archangel Michael and Angel Therapy decks by Doreen Virtue.
I figured Michael had something definitely big to say to me, and I really needed some positive vibes, some uplifting words to let me know what's going on, what I might want to consider doing and so on.
I won't reveal the messages he gave me, but I will say this much: if you struggle to trust Divine Timing, let alone Divine Wisdom, you are most definitely NOT ALONE!
Just because I have fully chosen to step into the path that the angels have been showing me since last month doesn't mean I've managed to throw away all doubt, disbelief, fear of what others think, and I've especially struggled with the question "when's all this going to happen?"
I wonder about it because it has become increasingly challenging to work in a position where higher-ups expect something of their workers that is often unrealistic or unfair, especially when those higher-ups often don't know what it's like "in the trenches," when they haven't rolled up their sleeves and done a busy weekend shift. When this happens, you KNOW the company's gotten too big for the higher-ups to be in compassionate, understanding frames of mind, communicating face to face with their subordinates.
And they wonder why they have high turnover rates! Companies such as the one I'm working for who expect robotic function and perfection from non-robotic beings are not in alignment with higher thinking, higher heart-resonance. They're strictly "bottom line" thinkers, and that ends up with them pulling rules and regulations out their arses with no real thought to how those rules affect the lives and psyches of others. What's worse is, companies like the one I work for often become dogmatic about those rules, if they weren't that way already. I put enough pressure on myself. I'm dogmatic towards myself all on my lonesome. I don't need help with that, f*** you very much!
And I feel like I have learned all I can possibly learn from food service, let alone the convenience store company I work for. If I go to another food service job it's gonna be the same ol' same ol' bullcrap: crappy job for crappy wages serving people who often act like toddlers in high chairs. And likely being punished via my schedule for teensy-weensy mistakes that anyone could likely make.
As a Sensitive, I just can't hack that crap anymore.
Sooo...Food Service, I'm sorry, but I'm breaking up with you for good. We had a good run, you and I, you had your lessons for me, but I'm done! Plus the energy was just not what it could have been toward the end. The angels have shown me what I need to be doing and I'm off to find out what's what with that. And it promises to be a very exciting part of my life journey. A very healing part of my journey. Thank you for the lessons, and no I am not heartbroken about leaving, and I am sure you're not too sad to see me go, either. I'm too high-vibe for you, man. And this high-vibe chick needs a different environment. One where I can really communicate with people, show them things and not just take orders like a soldier who doesn't question stuff or get to learn much of anything new.
Sayonara, sandwich-land. Hola to The Healing Way!
So after a particularly stressful night at work last night, knowing I just couldn't hack Casey's for too much longer, I decided I'd pull some cards from both the Archangel Michael and Angel Therapy decks by Doreen Virtue.
I figured Michael had something definitely big to say to me, and I really needed some positive vibes, some uplifting words to let me know what's going on, what I might want to consider doing and so on.
I won't reveal the messages he gave me, but I will say this much: if you struggle to trust Divine Timing, let alone Divine Wisdom, you are most definitely NOT ALONE!
Just because I have fully chosen to step into the path that the angels have been showing me since last month doesn't mean I've managed to throw away all doubt, disbelief, fear of what others think, and I've especially struggled with the question "when's all this going to happen?"
I wonder about it because it has become increasingly challenging to work in a position where higher-ups expect something of their workers that is often unrealistic or unfair, especially when those higher-ups often don't know what it's like "in the trenches," when they haven't rolled up their sleeves and done a busy weekend shift. When this happens, you KNOW the company's gotten too big for the higher-ups to be in compassionate, understanding frames of mind, communicating face to face with their subordinates.
And they wonder why they have high turnover rates! Companies such as the one I'm working for who expect robotic function and perfection from non-robotic beings are not in alignment with higher thinking, higher heart-resonance. They're strictly "bottom line" thinkers, and that ends up with them pulling rules and regulations out their arses with no real thought to how those rules affect the lives and psyches of others. What's worse is, companies like the one I work for often become dogmatic about those rules, if they weren't that way already. I put enough pressure on myself. I'm dogmatic towards myself all on my lonesome. I don't need help with that, f*** you very much!
And I feel like I have learned all I can possibly learn from food service, let alone the convenience store company I work for. If I go to another food service job it's gonna be the same ol' same ol' bullcrap: crappy job for crappy wages serving people who often act like toddlers in high chairs. And likely being punished via my schedule for teensy-weensy mistakes that anyone could likely make.
As a Sensitive, I just can't hack that crap anymore.
Sooo...Food Service, I'm sorry, but I'm breaking up with you for good. We had a good run, you and I, you had your lessons for me, but I'm done! Plus the energy was just not what it could have been toward the end. The angels have shown me what I need to be doing and I'm off to find out what's what with that. And it promises to be a very exciting part of my life journey. A very healing part of my journey. Thank you for the lessons, and no I am not heartbroken about leaving, and I am sure you're not too sad to see me go, either. I'm too high-vibe for you, man. And this high-vibe chick needs a different environment. One where I can really communicate with people, show them things and not just take orders like a soldier who doesn't question stuff or get to learn much of anything new.
Sayonara, sandwich-land. Hola to The Healing Way!
Saturday, June 14, 2014
Spirituality--Serious Business...Or...Not?
I started this post in an attempt to talk about just how serious--or not--one should be in their spiritual journey. And by serious I mean "don't laugh, don't smile, don't do or say anything that might offend anyone here on Earth, let alone God, and definitely do not deviate from the set rituals, ceremonies, words, of your chosen path because (insert Divine Denizen of Choice) won't like it."
To sum up what I want to say about the topic is challenging. I've got stories of my experiences that could fill a small hardcover book.
Maybe I should let it rest a while and come back when I've had sleep.
Maybe I should make a "top ten" list or something--to make it easier for me to write and easier for others to digest.
And above all, I want to make people laugh.
Humor is one of those things that breaks ANY kind of barrier to understanding one another and helps lighten the mood if people are getting frustrated with something.
Yet I sometimes become afraid that with humor, I'm not going to be "serious enough" for some folks, who might otherwise want a dry-as-overheated-turkey discourse, and who walk a super-straight-n-narrow path as if their very souls depended on it.
And just by writing all this down, I've got an idea, which will be written later. I've got to get some shuteye.
Until then...ponder all the dogmatic approaches to spiritual living that you've encountered--you might be surprised at how many of them sound like stuff you've unconsciously parroted, either by word or action.
Peace,
Kat ^.^
To sum up what I want to say about the topic is challenging. I've got stories of my experiences that could fill a small hardcover book.
Maybe I should let it rest a while and come back when I've had sleep.
Maybe I should make a "top ten" list or something--to make it easier for me to write and easier for others to digest.
And above all, I want to make people laugh.
Humor is one of those things that breaks ANY kind of barrier to understanding one another and helps lighten the mood if people are getting frustrated with something.
Yet I sometimes become afraid that with humor, I'm not going to be "serious enough" for some folks, who might otherwise want a dry-as-overheated-turkey discourse, and who walk a super-straight-n-narrow path as if their very souls depended on it.
And just by writing all this down, I've got an idea, which will be written later. I've got to get some shuteye.
Until then...ponder all the dogmatic approaches to spiritual living that you've encountered--you might be surprised at how many of them sound like stuff you've unconsciously parroted, either by word or action.
Peace,
Kat ^.^
Russell Brand...my Indigo Brother!
If you don't know who Russell Brand is, you are either Amish or hiding under a rock on purpose. But of course, those who are Amish won't be reading this, but you get my drift. And it is likely their less conservative cousins, the Mennonites won't have heard of him either just because he is quite the liberal thinker and definitely has a wider perception of Divine Consciousness than is taught in the more conservative sectors of religion. And they would likely take every offense at his outrageously sexual way of being, let alone his strong dislike of the current "authority" structure.
Why am I writing about Russell Brand in this particular blog?
Because I realized just how much of an Indigo Soul he really is. He's one of the early Indigos, born in 1975 (interestingly enough, the same year Jon Anderson & Vangelis recorded the song "So Long Ago, So Clear" for Vangelis' "Heaven & Hell" album).
"But the Indigos didn't start coming in full-strength till 1978," you say.
Well, he's one of the earlier ones, for sure. All the hallmarks are there: the intense dislike of "Because-I-Said-So" type authority, the desire to dismantle the current structures in place and replace them with higher expressions. And he definitely "thinks outside of the box" when it comes to communicating his ideas.
And modern media is the form that he is using to get his message of Oneness across--however crazily he does it. Little wonder, as he's a Gemini. He just had a birthday, in fact. Hard to believe he's 39 because he damn well doesn't look it.
I'm personally impressed with him because he's gone from being a former sex and drug addict to communicating some of the highest spiritual ideas and philosophies one can ever come across on this planet.
Indigos, being old souls, will pick apart, piece by piece, what needs to be changed and then find some way of changing it, however quietly or loudly. Russell Brand is no exception. He has taken an honest look at what might precipitate addictions of any kind, can make fun of his own checkered past (that seems to be one cardinal rule of standup--you have to be willing to poke fun at yourself!) and he's taken apart the system-at-large--is still doing so--and has clearly communicated what's wrong with it and how we might best fix it. He also promotes a "let's fix it together" way of thinking, an idea whose time is long overdue.
The reason I'm writing about Russell and his beautifully colorful, rebellious, "don't-care-what-they-think-of-me" attitude is I just finished watching his "Messiah Complex" standup routine on YouTube. It runs about an hour and 39 minutes...and he manages to cram so. Much. MATERIAL in that precious hour and 39 minutes. And he is so outrageously hilarious in addition to being insanely erudite and intelligent, both spiritually and intellectually.
The way he mixed in his philosophy, his spiritual outlook, and his humor felt like an alchemical mixture of stand-up, a TED Talk and slam poetry (especially there at the very end when he waxes VERY hilariously poetic about Divine Feminine Sexuality). It is likely that folks would label him ADD/ADHD in that very clinical, pathologizing, even behavior-shaming way that's been done the last ten or so years.
This is where I'm with Doreen Virtue. Such energy, high vibration and colorful being is NOT deserving of being pathologized and shamed. He's not "Attention Deficit." He's got his Attention Dialed into a Higher Dimension. He's calling OUR attention to a different way of seeing the world. If anything, I think many "ordinary" humans are the ones who are "attention deficient."
Ordinary humans pay attention to nothing but what's put in front of them, and they accept that reality because they're told they cannot change that reality. And they pay no attention to higher ways of being and thinking and doing. Higher ways that seek to change the desultory path that many humans take--the proverbial "hamster wheel" of life.
Like Russell Brand, I call "bullsh*t" on that kind of life. That is not the way I want to live. Like Don Juan Matus from the Carlos Castaneda books, I want to live my life in the Second Attention. That can be challenging to do. But it is worth doing.
Some may say that Russell Brand would be a poor role model for younger people because he talks about sex, and he talks about it in so-called "crude" ways, and he used to be a drug junkie. Such finger-waggers ignore his choice to see life and live life in a spiritual way. I think it's because they're so put off by his lack of fear.
Can you just imagine it?...all those finger-waggers saying the following stuff to their kids, if they were REALLY honest about what they're trying to teach...
(Assumes a look-down-the-nose, posh-sounding accent)
"Now, then, my dear! Living in fear is ever so much better a way of life because it makes you appear all proper and civilized and you should never once act crazy and eccentric--especially in MY household because, well, that sort of behavior just won't do at all. Not if you want to be seen as an upstanding citizen--and not if you don't want to embarrass me, your poor dear mother, in front of my friends. For if you do, I shall enter into a state of severe shock and affront from which only smelling salts can wake me!"
Know what I--and Russell Brand, my Indigo Brother would say to that kind of shaming attitude? "F*** off!" (I know, not the sort of thing you'd expect me to write in a spirituality blog...but as an Indigo myself, I never claimed to be super-pious and stuffed-shirt when it comes to my spirituality--which gives me an idea for another blog post!!!!)
For those of you who don't know what smelling salts are, they are as follows, as taken from Wikipedia:
Smelling salts are often an ammonia solution used for after someone has fainted, or if someone is on the verge of fainting. So where does the "spirit of hartshorn" come in? It used to be that the solution of smelling salts--the ammonia--was derived from shavings of harts' (male deer) antlers and hooves. Modern day solutions often add eucalyptus or lavender oil, likely to offset or act in conjunction with the strong smell of ammonia.
Who knew a spirituality post would end up with a small chemistry lesson, eh? ;-)
No, this post wasn't all that deep. BUT--I do hope the words made you laugh at least a little bit.
But if you want a REALLY big laugh, go watch Russell Brand's "Messiah Complex" show on YouTube--and then go visit his own channel, to which I promptly subscribed. I LOVE the way he thinks and if I had to pick a modern day comedian (other than Robin Williams) to hang out with, it'd be Russell. I know, some 'spiritual' types would look sideways at me for wanting to hang out with someone who doesn't "act" spiritual.
But like my Indigo Brother, I'm gonna challenge that notion of what "being spiritual" should "look like." I guess if you think being spiritual means being all stuffed-shirt, chaste language 24/7, never once cracking a joke about sex at ALL, then by all means live that way, but don't judge those of us with an actual sense of humor. To me, half of spirituality is the ways you can make fun of one's own tendencies to be overly serious. And to define certain kinds of humor as "coarse" or "crude" just tells me one thing: you haven't the ability to look at certain things, see them in a different perspective and laugh at the whole business!
Russell Brand could easily change out the words: "Milk, it does the body good," to: "Humor and sex BOTH do the body good!" ;-)
Speaking for myself, I like to think Russell Brand and I would get on just fine!
Peace and Laughter,
Kat ^.^
Why am I writing about Russell Brand in this particular blog?
Because I realized just how much of an Indigo Soul he really is. He's one of the early Indigos, born in 1975 (interestingly enough, the same year Jon Anderson & Vangelis recorded the song "So Long Ago, So Clear" for Vangelis' "Heaven & Hell" album).
"But the Indigos didn't start coming in full-strength till 1978," you say.
Well, he's one of the earlier ones, for sure. All the hallmarks are there: the intense dislike of "Because-I-Said-So" type authority, the desire to dismantle the current structures in place and replace them with higher expressions. And he definitely "thinks outside of the box" when it comes to communicating his ideas.
And modern media is the form that he is using to get his message of Oneness across--however crazily he does it. Little wonder, as he's a Gemini. He just had a birthday, in fact. Hard to believe he's 39 because he damn well doesn't look it.
I'm personally impressed with him because he's gone from being a former sex and drug addict to communicating some of the highest spiritual ideas and philosophies one can ever come across on this planet.
Indigos, being old souls, will pick apart, piece by piece, what needs to be changed and then find some way of changing it, however quietly or loudly. Russell Brand is no exception. He has taken an honest look at what might precipitate addictions of any kind, can make fun of his own checkered past (that seems to be one cardinal rule of standup--you have to be willing to poke fun at yourself!) and he's taken apart the system-at-large--is still doing so--and has clearly communicated what's wrong with it and how we might best fix it. He also promotes a "let's fix it together" way of thinking, an idea whose time is long overdue.
The reason I'm writing about Russell and his beautifully colorful, rebellious, "don't-care-what-they-think-of-me" attitude is I just finished watching his "Messiah Complex" standup routine on YouTube. It runs about an hour and 39 minutes...and he manages to cram so. Much. MATERIAL in that precious hour and 39 minutes. And he is so outrageously hilarious in addition to being insanely erudite and intelligent, both spiritually and intellectually.
The way he mixed in his philosophy, his spiritual outlook, and his humor felt like an alchemical mixture of stand-up, a TED Talk and slam poetry (especially there at the very end when he waxes VERY hilariously poetic about Divine Feminine Sexuality). It is likely that folks would label him ADD/ADHD in that very clinical, pathologizing, even behavior-shaming way that's been done the last ten or so years.
This is where I'm with Doreen Virtue. Such energy, high vibration and colorful being is NOT deserving of being pathologized and shamed. He's not "Attention Deficit." He's got his Attention Dialed into a Higher Dimension. He's calling OUR attention to a different way of seeing the world. If anything, I think many "ordinary" humans are the ones who are "attention deficient."
Ordinary humans pay attention to nothing but what's put in front of them, and they accept that reality because they're told they cannot change that reality. And they pay no attention to higher ways of being and thinking and doing. Higher ways that seek to change the desultory path that many humans take--the proverbial "hamster wheel" of life.
Like Russell Brand, I call "bullsh*t" on that kind of life. That is not the way I want to live. Like Don Juan Matus from the Carlos Castaneda books, I want to live my life in the Second Attention. That can be challenging to do. But it is worth doing.
Some may say that Russell Brand would be a poor role model for younger people because he talks about sex, and he talks about it in so-called "crude" ways, and he used to be a drug junkie. Such finger-waggers ignore his choice to see life and live life in a spiritual way. I think it's because they're so put off by his lack of fear.
Can you just imagine it?...all those finger-waggers saying the following stuff to their kids, if they were REALLY honest about what they're trying to teach...
(Assumes a look-down-the-nose, posh-sounding accent)
"Now, then, my dear! Living in fear is ever so much better a way of life because it makes you appear all proper and civilized and you should never once act crazy and eccentric--especially in MY household because, well, that sort of behavior just won't do at all. Not if you want to be seen as an upstanding citizen--and not if you don't want to embarrass me, your poor dear mother, in front of my friends. For if you do, I shall enter into a state of severe shock and affront from which only smelling salts can wake me!"
Know what I--and Russell Brand, my Indigo Brother would say to that kind of shaming attitude? "F*** off!" (I know, not the sort of thing you'd expect me to write in a spirituality blog...but as an Indigo myself, I never claimed to be super-pious and stuffed-shirt when it comes to my spirituality--which gives me an idea for another blog post!!!!)
For those of you who don't know what smelling salts are, they are as follows, as taken from Wikipedia:
"Smelling salts, also known as spirit of hartshorn or sal volatile, are chemical compounds used for arousing consciousness."
Smelling salts are often an ammonia solution used for after someone has fainted, or if someone is on the verge of fainting. So where does the "spirit of hartshorn" come in? It used to be that the solution of smelling salts--the ammonia--was derived from shavings of harts' (male deer) antlers and hooves. Modern day solutions often add eucalyptus or lavender oil, likely to offset or act in conjunction with the strong smell of ammonia.
Who knew a spirituality post would end up with a small chemistry lesson, eh? ;-)
No, this post wasn't all that deep. BUT--I do hope the words made you laugh at least a little bit.
But if you want a REALLY big laugh, go watch Russell Brand's "Messiah Complex" show on YouTube--and then go visit his own channel, to which I promptly subscribed. I LOVE the way he thinks and if I had to pick a modern day comedian (other than Robin Williams) to hang out with, it'd be Russell. I know, some 'spiritual' types would look sideways at me for wanting to hang out with someone who doesn't "act" spiritual.
But like my Indigo Brother, I'm gonna challenge that notion of what "being spiritual" should "look like." I guess if you think being spiritual means being all stuffed-shirt, chaste language 24/7, never once cracking a joke about sex at ALL, then by all means live that way, but don't judge those of us with an actual sense of humor. To me, half of spirituality is the ways you can make fun of one's own tendencies to be overly serious. And to define certain kinds of humor as "coarse" or "crude" just tells me one thing: you haven't the ability to look at certain things, see them in a different perspective and laugh at the whole business!
Russell Brand could easily change out the words: "Milk, it does the body good," to: "Humor and sex BOTH do the body good!" ;-)
Speaking for myself, I like to think Russell Brand and I would get on just fine!
Peace and Laughter,
Kat ^.^
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
One more thing...
One more thing...before I say "Allons-y!" and go off to bed...
If anyone tells you that you cannot grow spiritually from watching "Doctor Who," ask 'em what they're smoking.
I'll write more in detail about this later, but that's just food for thought.
Off to adventures in the wibbly-wobbly-ness of the Dreamtime!
Allons-y!
If anyone tells you that you cannot grow spiritually from watching "Doctor Who," ask 'em what they're smoking.
I'll write more in detail about this later, but that's just food for thought.
Off to adventures in the wibbly-wobbly-ness of the Dreamtime!
Allons-y!
Speaking from the Heart...
Before I created this spirituality blog, I kept thinking I ought to create it. No, forget "ought to." It was like a compulsion. Something I couldn't avoid even if I tried.
It has been my experience that if you have a repeated thought that you felt come from out of nowhere, you might as well follow it, because it's not coming from your ego. The ego wants to be praised, stroked, lauded for achievements. The Spirit within does things because it would be for one's growth as well as the growth of other people. So you follow Spirit's directives. And all the while, the ego who wants to be praised, stroked and lauded stabs you in the back saying, "but who are you to speak to others and pass on your knowledge? You don't have a degree--you didn't even graduate college."
It is then you turn to your ego and say, "No, I didn't. But Spirit has a tendency to call those of us who are not already praised and adored by others to speak truth. No, I don't have a degree. Society has a longstanding attachment to such things. Which is kind of funny because many people follow many spiritual avatars who never attended any sort of traditional school, save for the ones in their own religious cultures."
"Are you then saying," replies the ego, "that you are an avatar?"
"Oh, heck no. Whatever gave you that idea? I'm just an Indigo Starseed, here on assignment, to wake people up--to wake other Starseeds and help Earth get past its current state of being."
"And just what makes you so special, that you'd call yourself this 'Indigo Starseed' business?"
I have heard this question, over and over, from various secular versions of Pharisees and Sadducees, directed at other Indigo Starseeds like myself. And I have wondered how I am so qualified to help Earth when I look at my life and see where it has NOT gone. I haven't succeeded in business (yet) like other people. I have not graduated from college, and likely never will, my student loans being still partially unpaid. I still live with my parents, just because of economic issues. I am partly responsible for those issues, and partly not.
Yet I keep getting this feeling deep inside that I am called to be of service to humanity on a high energetic level. A healer friend with whom I have consulted has confirmed this calling several times already. And lately, I keep getting Archangel Michael in the oracle readings I do for myself. Archangel Michael oversees people's life purposes, and he is clearly pushing me to fulfill mine.
So, here I stand: Indigo Starseed, clairsentient, budding Tarot/oracle reader, budding Reiki practitioner...and who knows what else Spirit has called me to do. The message I keep getting in my cards is "go for it, do it! Go! You're a spiritual teacher! Go on!"
They say "fake it till you make it." I can't fake being clairsentient. Unless you've already experienced what that's like, it is tough to repeat the words of someone who experiences it day to day and have it sound real to others' ears. I also have some clairvoyant tendencies, but they're still in development. You know how hard it is to wake up a sleeping child for school? Yeah, that's what developing an intuitive gift can be like, especially after many lifetimes of having to shut it off or away because of being punished or killed just for having that gift! Now is the time for gifts like this to be awakened, and I am apparently no different, it seems.
And I also cannot fake the feeling of wanting to pass along what I know to other people because I DO want to help. Earth needs help. Humanity needs help. And apparently I was asked--and I accepted the mission. Because I serve the Light. And I don't want to see humanity continue its walk down the path of self-destruction, especially by destroying the very planet that was created for human soul growth.
Humans destroying Earth like we have been is akin to 6th graders wanting to burn down the elementary school because they don't want to grow up. They don't want to listen to the teachers and their wisdoms.
Madeleine L'Engle used a word to describe not just growing up, but growing wiser. She called it "Deepening." I first encountered the word in her book "A Wind in the Door." She was--is--one of my most favorite authors. She has passed to the Other Side, back where we all originate. She even capitalized the word "Teacher," in reference to one of her "Wind" characters being in a higher way of Teaching, of having a Greater Spiritual Work. And I remember resonating with the way she wrote that, and I remember wondering if I, too, had a Greater Spiritual Work like that.
Well...it appears that I do. I've known this since the last several weeks. And I am still gobsmacked by the idea. In fact, I am crying as I write this, because it's so mindblowing. I wonder what my old mentor Nancy Nichols, a Methodist minister while here on Earth, is seeing, if her soul has inquired after mine at all once she passed over. Not that I'm about to go back to the church. I left that scene because I was tired of the hypocrisy and I needed to do my own seeking.
BUT...online ordination is not out of the question, so I will likely be exploring that again.
Something tells me that my journey is just beginning. Just knowing at least part of what I am here to do has me thrown for a loop. But I ask myself: What would I rather be doing? Gaining spiritual knowledge, growing from that, and passing it on to others, or mucking about in the same old crappy job with crappy pay, only helping people stuff their faces with pizza that hardens the arteries and makes them sick in other ways?
No...I see the hand of my primary teacher, my favorite musician, Jon Anderson, reaching his hand towards me, beckoning me to fulfill my greatest potential. That is a LOT more appealing than the other option. And what's more--this man has helped me heal in so many ways...how could I not follow in his footsteps and help others heal, too--even if my path is not precisely the same as his?
And all this definitely beats the old "You want fries with that?" spiel. ;-)
Till next time, my friends. :-)
Peace,
Kat ^.^
It has been my experience that if you have a repeated thought that you felt come from out of nowhere, you might as well follow it, because it's not coming from your ego. The ego wants to be praised, stroked, lauded for achievements. The Spirit within does things because it would be for one's growth as well as the growth of other people. So you follow Spirit's directives. And all the while, the ego who wants to be praised, stroked and lauded stabs you in the back saying, "but who are you to speak to others and pass on your knowledge? You don't have a degree--you didn't even graduate college."
It is then you turn to your ego and say, "No, I didn't. But Spirit has a tendency to call those of us who are not already praised and adored by others to speak truth. No, I don't have a degree. Society has a longstanding attachment to such things. Which is kind of funny because many people follow many spiritual avatars who never attended any sort of traditional school, save for the ones in their own religious cultures."
"Are you then saying," replies the ego, "that you are an avatar?"
"Oh, heck no. Whatever gave you that idea? I'm just an Indigo Starseed, here on assignment, to wake people up--to wake other Starseeds and help Earth get past its current state of being."
"And just what makes you so special, that you'd call yourself this 'Indigo Starseed' business?"
I have heard this question, over and over, from various secular versions of Pharisees and Sadducees, directed at other Indigo Starseeds like myself. And I have wondered how I am so qualified to help Earth when I look at my life and see where it has NOT gone. I haven't succeeded in business (yet) like other people. I have not graduated from college, and likely never will, my student loans being still partially unpaid. I still live with my parents, just because of economic issues. I am partly responsible for those issues, and partly not.
Yet I keep getting this feeling deep inside that I am called to be of service to humanity on a high energetic level. A healer friend with whom I have consulted has confirmed this calling several times already. And lately, I keep getting Archangel Michael in the oracle readings I do for myself. Archangel Michael oversees people's life purposes, and he is clearly pushing me to fulfill mine.
So, here I stand: Indigo Starseed, clairsentient, budding Tarot/oracle reader, budding Reiki practitioner...and who knows what else Spirit has called me to do. The message I keep getting in my cards is "go for it, do it! Go! You're a spiritual teacher! Go on!"
They say "fake it till you make it." I can't fake being clairsentient. Unless you've already experienced what that's like, it is tough to repeat the words of someone who experiences it day to day and have it sound real to others' ears. I also have some clairvoyant tendencies, but they're still in development. You know how hard it is to wake up a sleeping child for school? Yeah, that's what developing an intuitive gift can be like, especially after many lifetimes of having to shut it off or away because of being punished or killed just for having that gift! Now is the time for gifts like this to be awakened, and I am apparently no different, it seems.
And I also cannot fake the feeling of wanting to pass along what I know to other people because I DO want to help. Earth needs help. Humanity needs help. And apparently I was asked--and I accepted the mission. Because I serve the Light. And I don't want to see humanity continue its walk down the path of self-destruction, especially by destroying the very planet that was created for human soul growth.
Humans destroying Earth like we have been is akin to 6th graders wanting to burn down the elementary school because they don't want to grow up. They don't want to listen to the teachers and their wisdoms.
Madeleine L'Engle used a word to describe not just growing up, but growing wiser. She called it "Deepening." I first encountered the word in her book "A Wind in the Door." She was--is--one of my most favorite authors. She has passed to the Other Side, back where we all originate. She even capitalized the word "Teacher," in reference to one of her "Wind" characters being in a higher way of Teaching, of having a Greater Spiritual Work. And I remember resonating with the way she wrote that, and I remember wondering if I, too, had a Greater Spiritual Work like that.
Well...it appears that I do. I've known this since the last several weeks. And I am still gobsmacked by the idea. In fact, I am crying as I write this, because it's so mindblowing. I wonder what my old mentor Nancy Nichols, a Methodist minister while here on Earth, is seeing, if her soul has inquired after mine at all once she passed over. Not that I'm about to go back to the church. I left that scene because I was tired of the hypocrisy and I needed to do my own seeking.
BUT...online ordination is not out of the question, so I will likely be exploring that again.
Something tells me that my journey is just beginning. Just knowing at least part of what I am here to do has me thrown for a loop. But I ask myself: What would I rather be doing? Gaining spiritual knowledge, growing from that, and passing it on to others, or mucking about in the same old crappy job with crappy pay, only helping people stuff their faces with pizza that hardens the arteries and makes them sick in other ways?
No...I see the hand of my primary teacher, my favorite musician, Jon Anderson, reaching his hand towards me, beckoning me to fulfill my greatest potential. That is a LOT more appealing than the other option. And what's more--this man has helped me heal in so many ways...how could I not follow in his footsteps and help others heal, too--even if my path is not precisely the same as his?
And all this definitely beats the old "You want fries with that?" spiel. ;-)
Till next time, my friends. :-)
Peace,
Kat ^.^
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